2019- Beyond Belief . . . Live boldly, full of faith and passion, trusting God every step of the way! 🔥
Confession: I am a perfectionist. I try to be the strong one. to do everything right. to do what I'm told. to be everyone's savior. to rescue and restore what is wrong. But guess what? I'm not strong, and I can't save anyone! (surprised? ha ha)
God has been speaking to me so much lately about my dependance on Him - about how HE'S the strong one. And as long as I try to be the strong one, He is not glorified. I’m learning to submit my weakness to God, acknowledging that I can do nothing in my own strength, it’s all through the power of the Holy Spirit. It’s not up to me to be the strong one, God is the strong one. But through Christ, I can do all things and nothing is impossible.
He’s also been speaking to me about my inheritance. About everything He has purchased for me. He wants me to walk in the fulness of that, but it requires faith. My word for 2018 is Believe. I need to walk in great faith, trusting Him.
In Corinthians chapter 15 Paul speaks about sowing and reaping. Here is my take on this passage:
So everything we offer to the Lord in weakness, He raises in strength and glory - as HE DETERMINES. We submit ourselves to the Lord in weakness, and He resurrects it in power! My problem is I strive so much in the flesh - checking off lists, duties, obligations - but flesh and blood does not inherit the kingdom. I try to do everything in my own strength, but God continues to remind me that He has already won the battle for me. He’s already paid the price. And He freely gives me my inheritance because I believe in Him.
Paul’s conclusion is in verse 58:
Therefore, my dear brothers and sisters, STAND FIRM. LET NOTHING MOVE YOU. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain!!!
I submit myself to the Lord and allow Him to bring about His will in my life, remembering that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek after Him. He promises the harvest if I don't give up, and He will bring the harvest as He determines. The beautiful thing is I plant some tiny little humble seed, and He causes it to become a strong plant bearing much fruit, to the glory of the Father.
Only God can take my weakness and turn it into something strong and beautiful.
It's easy for me to read about the Israelites journey and think, "How in the world did they NOT trust God after all the miraculous interventions of God?"
They were in great distress in their slavery to the Egyptians, so God led them out of Egypt as God pronounced one judgement after another upon Pharaoh and his people.
The Israelites watched the mighty hand of God deliver them as their enemies drowned in the Red Sea, while they crossed over to freedom on dry ground.
Yet in the wilderness, they began to question God's goodness and His ability to supply food for them. Even though Moses had struck the rock, and rivers of water gushed forth - enough for a million plus people and their flocks - they still doubted the power of God to take care of them.
Is it hard for you to depend on God for His provision? for His deliverance?
TIME AFTER TIME I HAVE SEEN GOD MOVE ON MY BEHALF, but I still question His goodness. I am unable to believe that He is GOOD, and that the path He has for me is for my GOOD.
When we walk through the valleys and our world comes crashing in, what do you run to? What idols are exposed in the heat of the fire? Do you try to fix things yourself? Do you want to go back to your self-sufficient life, or would you rather see God's miraculous hand of deliverance, leading you with His cloud by day, and the light of His fire at night?
God wants us to know that He is with us through the deep waters. His love is powerful. His mercy is unending.
REMEMBER His power. He is able to deliver. Trust in His goodness.
Have you ever struggled with the direction you're supposed to go? What to do? How should I invest my time? What am I called to do? Why do I feel so lost?
This seems to be the season I am in right now . . . seeking direction, but more specifically, finding out who I really am. Who has God created me to be, and what should I be doing with my life?
After 26 years of raising a family of four (five if you count my husband) ;), our last child sprouted her wings and we now have an "empty" nest. I put parenthesis around "empty" because our house is still quite full on weekends when the grandkids come to visit, or the kids come over to go four-wheeling or swimming in the pool.
But the last two years, for the first time in my entire life, I have been able to make my own schedule - no practices to go to, soccer games, PTA meetings, fundraisers, concession stand duty or goodness knows what else! My time is no longer dictated by other people's commitments. Honestly, I thought I would have such a rough time, missing the kids and the life we shared, but it has been very refreshing for me to do what I want to do, when I want to, and how I want to!
Lately, however, God has me, what I would call, fenced in. Everything I have tried to put my energy and effort into has hit dead ends. It finds me questioning. OK, now what? WHAT???
One thing I have learned about myself (I am learning a LOT about myself that I haven't known before) is that I am a perfectionist :/// And one of the false beliefs I have lived by (unknowingly) is "If I don't make it happen myself, it won't happen". There is no trust in God in that statement. Because with God, ALL THINGS are possible. It puts all the responsibility upon ME. I WILL MAKE IT HAPPEN. I am a worker. A doer. Give me a list or tell me what to do, and by God, I will get it done. I am reliable and faithful. I'm a HARD worker!
Interestingly, God has been reminding me of my true name. I go by Jeanie, but my given name is Mary. The famous story in the Bible of Martha wiping herself out by "serving", while Mary sat at Jesus' feet learning and listening, just being with Him, was brought back to my mind. "You are called to be a Mary, not a Martha." Ouch. We can get so BUSY - busy serving the very One who is our source of life, that we miss the very thing we are called to - fellowship with God himself.
Then God led me to this scripture today. Is. 30:31 Whether you turn to the right or the left, your ears will hear a voice saying, This is the way, walk in it."
When we stop the rush of life, notice where God is leading, pay attention to that voice that is prompting you. He will breathe life into all that you do. It will be purposeful and fulfilling. Later on in that same passage it tells us to earnestly wait for Him, to expect, look and long for Him. It will bring unbroken companionship as He walks with us throughout each day.
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